This week, I learned that one of my weak areas within my writing (at least initially) is the area of character development. I can throw out hidden themes that I only catch later, or I can easily come up with a unique setting or problem. But fleshing out my characters never materializes very well in my first initial draft no matter how much I have thought about the character first. This might not sound like a big deal, but considering that great characters are what keeps us reading, it is actually a big problem.
I think it is one of the reasons I struggle to write effective short stories. It is a problem that I would love to see myself outgrow and I am now constantly working on developing my main characters. Like all good stories, the current short story that I have been working on started out as a singular thought and is morphing out from that. With the work I have done this week alone, I have turned a 500-word piece into a genuinely good short story of at least double the size. I am actively putting the writing lessons that I have learned over the last several months to work as I polish and develop this story to its fruition.
I feel I am learning at an alarmingly fast rate like I am flying downhill on a bike with no brakes. I am scared and thrilled all at the same time. As my deadline approaches, and I see the bottom of the hill, I am wondering if I will find the right way to stop without crashing a good thing. Essentially, I am worried because (another weak area) I know I am not good at endings. They scare me and leave me feeling pained and anxious. But I will do it. I will find a way. I always do.
I am starting the actual rewrite today and my goal yesterday was to get as much of the fleshing out and piecework done before my rewrite. Now I can sit down and start piecing it together, weaving in the necessary details together to bring the whole thing to life. Someone once told me that writing is magic and I am beginning to learn how to cast the spell. I am grateful that I have taken the time to learn, question, study, and pursue the aspect of getting it right. It is the most satisfying ending I have come up with, so far.